What's that? Speak up. I can't hear you.

I was going through my blog in search for an earlier post. By earlier I mean about a year ago. As much as it had me thinking about the garbage I turned some of my time here on earth into, it also showed me something else: I don't blog even half as much as I used to. And I really enjoy me a little blog time. So what the hell? I think it's because as much as I am alive, I simply don't have as much going on as I am used to. I sort of fell into the grind so to speak and it horrifies me because I would much rather be off on my newest adventure (turned nightmare) to be honest. And maybe I am not charging around full throttle but my brain is still as active as ever. Maybe even more so as it usually goes on overdrive when I am not actively searching out my demise. It's crazy in here. I'm going to try and get back into the things I enjoy. I don't really know what happened. It's like I came back to MA and a part of me screamed and died in the process.

What size are you?

You know it's past the point of no return when you head for the shower and someone casually says "heeeey... check you out... big date tonight?" when we all know there's no big anything tonight. Maybe if they used some kind of reward system I might kick it up a notch but I gotta be honest with you, the homeless look is comfortable enough to be a reward all in itself. So good luck with that.

I ordered these incredibly awesome t-shirts. You know what, before I go on with this let me tell you the history behind these awesome t-shirts... I need some t-shirts and I fucking hate most of the ones being offered at stores. I'm also not the type to spend more than $15 on a t-shirt so we're talking some awful graphics to choose from. If I see one more peace sign made out of hearts I'll scream. So of course I go on a massive online search for the ultimate t-shirt collection. Lo and behold I stumble across Tilteed and they're having a $10 t-shirt sale. Some of them are even $6!

Side note: I just went onto their site and we're not talking about the fucking peace sign t-shirt except to say at least it's made out of decent graphics and not some flower power hippy love bullshit.

Speaking of clothing, what the unholy hell is going on with sizes? I used to be a medium. In everything. Which ended up being a size 8 for skirts and pants. Every time, all day. All of a sudden I am all these crazy sizes and seriously you guys, I haven't changed that much. I am now a large in most but not all shirts. In fact, some of my tank tops are small because the mediums hung off me so badly. Then there are the bottoms. Riddle me this: How the F am I a size 5 small in undies when I am a size large and a half in everything else? Does not compute. Why if the ass fits do I have this giant gap up on the waist but if the waist fits I can barely get my legs through the openings? What the hell is going on out there? Now I don't often shop because of how much I loathe it and I'll be honest with you, this has just about turned me off completely. Pair this with the homeless look being comfortable and you have a recipe for disaster.