I'm trying to find my good time... it's here somewhere.

You know, in Boston it might take a tank to stay intact after the beating served up by the roads, and there might be lots of roads that are lacking signage, and everyone might drive like a total douchbag however you'll never be searching for, say, 5th avenue and while driving around the block over and over because damn it, there's 5th boulevard, and 5th terrace, and 5th street, and 5th road, just to find out 5th AVE is over the other side of fucking town which just happens to be a 45 minute ride. OR. Or when you are looking for 201457 whatever street and you know you're dead close because there's 201455 and here comes 201456 and oooooh, wait a minute, is that a mountain? Oh I'm sorry, you didn't know we just stop streets and start them on the other side of things like mountains and indian reservations. Because see, the mountain isn't there if we just keep the roadway going on either side of it or some shit like that. Fuck grids. Mountains are cool though.

Whoever wants to smash Boston's streets, go for it, but every other city is just as fucked up in it's own down syndrome way. It's like that dream I had just before heading out. It bothered me for a long time. Maybe this is evidence it's still bugging me? Anyway, in said dream I was driving and every time I got off the highway to check things out, everything I saw was compiled of everything I had all ready experienced. The houses, the stores, the people, the animals, the fucking plant life. Everything. It was always in a different order, but it was never anything new. I tried breaking it down to the people I spoke with but they gave me that same "she's an odd duck" look I always get when I try to explain what is truly bothering me. Isn't there some truth in that though? Pick your natural disaster or extreme weather and go for it, because it's all the same shit no matter where you make your residence. I feel like a life drone. I swear, if I ever find out we are just meat puppets swinging about on some stage for the entertainment of others, I won't even blink.

So I'm going to
go ahead and try to sleep
off this bitter pill

night night